Glucose respiration

The day before yesterday I had a dream where I got to meet up w an internet friend of mine who was popular online because of a memorial Instagram account she had dedicated to her younger brother. She never public ally revealed how he died so when we met I asked her and through her tears she talked about how her dad was an “open masochist” who was into this one specific kink called “glucose respiration”. It consisted of chugging glucose and staying as still as possible until your body could get rid of it one way or the other. Usually it could just be done with medical grade glucose (the kind they give to babies with infant jaundice. I know this because according to my parents I had infant jaundice and they had to feed me glucose in some kind of ICU) or a thicker, harder to obtain glucose just for this kink. Her brother got a hold of this thicker glucose and had somehow drank enough to kill him. After that, i went to the airport and then had to evacuate because they found a really toxic isotope of sodium in the air. Damn...

Anyways, I’m writing this on my iPhone 6! The typing sounds are fun. Using this thing is very cathartic...but blogging isn’t so efficient...(anime girl voice)Uuuuu....doushiyou......

Bye! Good night~!

~Cat

My valentines gift to you is a molecule of ATP

Yesterday i got the news that i got a D in both my biology quizzes. 

Two weeks are left until Ramadan.

I know this story all too well...

All day ive been studying the SAME BIOLOGY TOPIC; photosynthesis. Dont ask me what photophosphorylation is. I will not be able to tell you. 

I still need to study the nervous system too...agh...

Whatever. Once im done writing this, im gonna make some instant noodles and call it a day.

Torture aside, it was raining! Yay! I ate too much cinnabon today. So. Good. 

I called my friend and we watched the new alien stage episode together. Hyuna... :(

I also got to draw again! I got over my hatred for art! For the next two weeks, at least...

Ta-da! Click for higher quality; this is just a preview :p

I wish we got more Naruken x Junko. All we have is a blog picture, that MC where Junko calls Naruken an ikemen, and a trading card. Just vile, really. I know Junko's whole thing is being a Reita fangirl, but she has a sexy bandmen RIGHT IN FRONT OF HER for the taking, and she's just gonna let him be taken? FUCK NO! DATE THAT DO-MINOR BANDMAN!!!!!

I'm thankful for my friends, my mutuals, my iPhone 6, and my biology worksheets this Valentines season. Take care of yourselves. 

Bye!

~Cat

White colored chocolate...

My cute girl friend

Ah...S.Q.F...they'd probably be my honmeiban if golden bomber wasnt my honmeiban >_> Today i managed to find their Cold Romance 2006 DVD, and it's such a travesty. Song after song after song. No MC. Nothing. Just pure song-performing willpower. I love it. The venue's so small you can see cameramen in the corner recording the DVD. Not a single man in the audience. Backstage footage of a band member smoking a cigarette. It's just beautiful. I love this. I love everything. I. love. it. There's even a slideshow with an instrumental version of Brilliance in the background. That and Cold Romance is just a really really good album...

One song i found interesting was Shiro no Chocolate. Apparently, it's on the CD single for Maria but a) ive never seen it in the digital singles tracklist and b) i cant find the Maria CD anywhere! Except for yahoo auctions. I wanna hear a studio version someday. It sounded really cute. It's a Valentine's Day song. Fitting!

I haven't been as sad but i'll admit, this month's kind of wrung me dry like a towel...

I can't help but think, I wanna draw! Then never drawing...i just cant get myself to put the effort into drawing when i know no one will truly, genuinely care. There's so much art i want to draw and yet i never feel like drawing any of it and over what? Something so pointless...

Drawing just doesn't make me happy anymore, not like it used to. What to do...it's not daijobu anymore (starts to cry) 

While writing the previous paragraph, i realized that none of this really matters. I took a break to stalk Kenji Darvish's blog posts from 2017 for my own pleasure because i havent done that in a while. Last time i was on his blog i was saving really old pics for a scrapped video...Hey. You should do that too. Stalk your honmei's social media. It's always morally ethical.

Ah! I've still been translating stuff!!! Check these out!

These are hy4_4yh song translations! I should probably dedicate a post to them, but for now, i'll be promoting them here! I subbed these using Aegisub, and the footage is from my own hy4_4yh DVD!

Translating Misora Jump was interesting. I tried staying as faithful as i could to the original lyrics...i hope it worked out well! I'm still new to translating so do tell me if i made a mistake!

Michi's voice is so beautiful...

I should probably sleep now.

Good night!

~Cat

Cairo 2days document + New years thoughts

This January feels strange and i can't really put my finger on why it feels so strange. It feels like 2024 isn't really over...i still have things from that year that are kind of lingering into this one. That and also i cant process the fact that the Utahiro Kinbaku Yamarutteyo tour is turning 10 this year. Don't do this to me...

I want to be kinder this year. I want to lose weight. But to do that i'll have to prioritize walking ~10k steps daily. I want to have more of the willpower that I need to study. I want to get a perm and maybe get a cute sidepart in the process...all of these are wishes ive had for the past few years, i feel. I don't know. Don't ask me...

2024 sucked academically so i'm hoping this year sucks less. I'm hoping for a happy year full of golden bomber merch and more Kenji selfies that aren't behind a paywall. Hey...maybe i deserve a Marukin subscription for all my hard work. But how would i receive all the physical goodies...i dont live in Japan... 

Anyways! I sometimes go to Egypt in the winter, and this time was no different. I visited Cairo from the 6th to the 8th to see my cousin. 

Getting ready

My bags! One for going out, and one for...ita! It's my itabag that i've showed off before. She's as good as ever. Everything's intact...thankfully...one of the rhinestones on the cheki holder nearly fell off though LOL. Regardless she lives on!

 

I got one of these clear keychains from Daiso a few months back . I found out it can fit not one, but TWO! can badges. I'm a fan...

Cuties posing for a pic!

The trip begins! I got my itabag and my outing bag. Yay. Check out my phone.

Before we went to Cairo, we stopped by the mall! Ice cream was good. Simple yet delish combo...french vanilla and choco chips~

Day one

What a dire situation im in...my cousin wanted me to rip her Snake River Conspiracy CD (specifically their Sonic Jihad album) for her and i obliged ^.^

The CD drive was being a bitch. A real bitch. An ultra bitch. Refused to mount whatsoever. Still ripped it though! It's good industrial and i liked Casualty a lot...

"Is this giving tumblr aesthetic" 

~ My cousin

The DVD was so good though. I ripped it into an ISO file for her too. Indoctrination...ISO best...MKV good but not best...you do want the DVD menu do u not

MY OUTFIT! We went to the mall that same evening!

We were told the stores would close around 10 or 11 PM. 

It was 9:30 PM when we went.

Tragic...

Despite all the stores being closed, one thing was there for us no matter what...FOOD!

I got some chicken and fries with (strangely gelatinous???) ranch, all with a side of cheese fries to share. I didn't like the cheese fries so my cousin had them. She also had a lime smoothie sorbet thing (pictured). When she gave it to me to try, i dont know why or what happened, but i INSTANTLY bolted my head to the straw and she was like damn!!!!! youve been WAITING!!!!! It was very refreshing though.

Issho Baka once more! \(^^)/ i thought my cousin wanted to watch the full thing...but apparently not which made me sad because she did agree to watching a concert...but we did watch the fourth stageplay. The makeupless kenji one. (p.s to my cousin if youre reading this i forgive you and good luck on your 300 question exam.)

That was all for the first day!

Day two

Not much in terms of pictures for the second day. This is practically all i took.

We went to the garden!

Lots of dogs, all as stupid as can be. Just delightful...

That evening, me and my cousin went to the mall. Again.

The store we wanted to go to was still closed.

It was 7 pm.

Ugh...

Bye-bye Cairo!

This is from the day after that; we left and before we...left we went to another mall! 

More cold stone!

More french vanilla with chocolate chips!

Yes! Yes! Yes!

Before this, we watched the Sonic 3 movie.

Very funny!!!! I love you Jim Carrey!!!!!!! Me and my brother kept repeating konnichiwhaaaaaaaaat like...parrots.

Before the sonic movie, we had Chilli's.

Delicious. 

I had honey chipotle chicken.

Now that im home...i feel a bit calmer, i think...i cant wait to use the elliptical at the gym and i especially cant wait to go to daiso again!!!!!!

I hope i can buy more jewelry the next time i go to egypt. 

Ill be honest... theres a lot i couldve blogged about in 2024. I missed a lot of blogging opportunities...but maybe thats why i still blog regardless. Doing it at my pace makes things easier.

I hope i can stay true to myself.

WAIT! Before you go...

Ive been getting into fansubbing. I started with the Issho Baka intro video.

Please watch it. I cant really put it up on youtube...

It's a big video. I think i shouldve compressed it.

I wanna sub more GB videos...but most of my DVDs with proper intro videos with on-screen subs are the feat. Kenji versions so...i think i need to buy more DVDs~! lol

Bye!

~Cat

What a week it has been ^3^

I nearly died earlier this week (like a few days ago...)! My muscles started to hurt incredibly bad, but specifically my arms and legs. I dont know why, but i instantly started to cry, and i cried so much that my nose was full of snot and i genuinely could not breathe. I took a few painkillers, then i woke up and it was all gone!

I guess if theres one thing i can learn, its that pain is never permanent. Ever! I try my best to tell myself this. I can get as angry or tense as i want, but in as little as a few minutes, or as much as a few hours, it all just disappears and things are okay. It's really weird but it's good for keeping my feelings at bay. #MeaningfulLifeLessons #Important 

That and also for whatever reason seeing the new kyusaku/shinsaku goods just brought my mood down a tiny bit when i thought about it too deep. I dont think i can imagine next year passing without me seeing golden bomber live...but at the same time ill be too busy with reality to the point where i also cant imagine myself...GOING...lol (im in so much pain...)

Anyways! Tomorrow's Friday so no fasting. Yay! I'm gonna have a nice breakfast hopefully. And then finally go to that accessory store. PLEASE GOD LET ME GO TO THAT ACCESSORIES STORE. I have to! I must! Ive been wanting to go for literally months! 

I took my mandatory mid-blog break of unspecified time and i saw a picture of (can you guess) Kenji shirtless in a hotel room bed and is it ok that my entire body just started getting really really warm? Like abnormally warm? I feel like this is a new level of delusional for me. The only thing supposed to be making my body this warm should be like...a bad fever or something i dont knowwwwwww

Above: Real image of me thinking about all the perverse Kenji Darvish images ive seen over the years

I've been looping songs. I always loop songs. But this week's song is interesting even to me

I'm no stranger to Mounir's music...before Perfume and Golden Bomber he was all i listened to (because my parents would blast his music in the car all the time). I feel like he has better songs than this one, but it isnt bad by any means. It's catchy! But it feels like one of his more experimental songs. I dont know. All this man's fans are like three times my age ill just stick to my shallow GB songs or something. It's one of those songs id recommend only if youve listened to more of his songs...u get me?

It's 3 am...shit...

Uhm, bye!

~Cat

Torso pains...need to online shop...

 

Ahh...It's like 1 am and ive been browsing blogs for most of the day. I wanna delve in the delusion of like...being 2012 and daruupa still having some sense of genuineness to it (all those blog posts of them drinking together...) but sadly real life is A BITCH so i have priorities and theyre really just...a-level biology and i really hope things go well i dont have much to say =.=

I'm kind of excited for next month...i'm going on yet another winter trip and i have PLANS. My biggest one (besides buying chunky 100 l.e silver jewelry) is to meet up with a friend of mine and give her my dupe Kenji can badges. There are still like two or three im keeping for me (sorry!) but i'm giving her like 6 or so. Yay!

Right now im switching between songs but i shuffled and it landed onto THE ZOMBIE SONG...i wanna make a daruupa animation to it someday...zombie gamer jun and shin nisa kenji (dreamy sigh) ok ive said too much

Also, ouch my stomach hurts my body hurts! I didnt even exercise much today and my stomach hurts like hell! Is it calories burning or organs shutting down...who knows. Ive had to close this laptop for a good like twenty minutes until the pain would calm down my torso generally still hurts but its whatevs if its still in agonizing pain by tomorrow ill consider uhmmmmm DEATH! Kidding im just kidding. I shouldnt joke about such a serious thing

Tomorrow i take a break from fasting. Yaaaay...this weekend i can finally go to the accessories store ive been wanting to go to for the past few months. My mom told me i could go a while ago on the condition i dont buy anything but i declined because...im not gonna torture myself like that. Shes still sanctioning merch from japan...le sigh. Sometimes i wish i could take a really long nap and wake up to things magically fixing themselves up while im in a floral dress with roses and pearls and my hair and makeup done for me but thats just wishful thinking. Things just feel kind of bleak. Looking at the sunlight in my room doesnt make me as happy.

I'm kind of grateful of how im finally making more internet friends...hopefully i can make more irl ones? lol

Regardless of it all...I have to lock in as they say. I also HAVE TO BUY GOLDEN BOMBER DVDS NOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWW OR ELSEEEEEE PLEASE MOM HAVE MERCY ON ME LET ME BUY YAREBADEKIRU KO AND ISSHO BAKA FEAT. KENJIIIII sorry bout dat...Im desperate

I kinda want all of this to end...

~Cat

Surely

God i feel like the hardest part of making a blog post besides actually making the post is naming it...i apparently already had a draft from the 8th of this month and it was called Surely because thats the song i was listening to while naming it LOL. That's a lie now though because i'm listening to Melo Melo Bakkyun by Sho Kiryuin which is a meaningful lesson that sadness is stupid and temporary and sometimes the best course of action is to MAN UP and LISTEN TO J-POP SUNG BY A MAN INSTEAD

See? I'm fine now...(sniff)

Anyways! Since it's winter, it's officially make-up-your-ramadan-fast-you-lazy-slob season...so thats what ive been doing '-' duh. This ramadan was when i got my pcos diagnosis so my period was unusually long. I have to make up 15 days of fasting. And during ramadan itself i had to fast while on my period since i already overstepped the limit (i had no idea a limit of 15 days existed but apparently there is a limit!)

Today, I rewatched Issho Baka. Again. For the third fucking time. God im pathetic...but specifically, i was rewatching the January 21st performance at Osaka-jo Hall. Isn't it crazy it has a slightly bigger capacity than Nippon Budokan?! As in, it seats 16k people while Budokan seats 14k. And yet it feels like Budokan is THE venue. Whaaaat...maybe i'm missing something o_o lol (maybe it's just something location related?)

"Thank you so much for purifying me! I'm so happy t-"
"Fuck me right here. Right now. In front of Osa Red and Osa Blue. They won't care. I won't care either..."

I like the 1/21 performance. It's fun and i like the little switch-up after the 4th stageplay (the infamous suppin Kenji one!!!). Instead of performing Shiawase no Uta like they usually do, they performed Ashita no Sho instead. Weird change but i get it. I guess. Looking at the 1/15 setlist again, they also performed Ashita no Sho. My bad...Kyan's cardboard saxophone solo was funny though. Why'd he stare out so erotically into the crowd at the end...

I think 1/14 is good as a kind of like...cult initiation of sorts for anyone who wants to know what the average Big Venue Golden Bomber Live is like. It's like required watching! 1/15 isn't bad either, but it lacks CAMERA SHOTS OF KENJI DRUMMING BEFORE HE PUTS HIS MAKEUP BACK ON. 1/21 also has this issue. It's really annoying. 1/14 wins in the aspect of drum shots while he's still makeupless...so...yay?

In terms of how the stageplay's done, I'd say it's nice in all of them, but 1/15 has Kenji doing this dramatic jump in the last one. Konnichiwa Kodoku is some kind of anomaly song to me because it never got a studio recording until 2019...can you imagine...it's been rotting for 7 whole years...

I also remember a friend told me that apparently Konnichiwa Kodoku was written by Sho back in 2008 when Dankichi was still around. Sho said that in his autobiography that i've never read...or seen scans of...or touched. So make that...11 whole years! Just ROTTING! No studio recording! NOTHING!

I'm running out of thoughts. I remembered SUWAMASARU all of a sudden and now i miss them. I miss my wife tails

Bye!

~Cat