Yarebadekiru Ko + talking

Back in early April, right after eid, I bought a bunch of Golden Bomber DVDs. I had to ship them out in like 2 separate packages...very expensive ;_;

Since this was during peak exam season, I couldn't really watch any of them to my hearts desire. 

But now, at midnight, I'm watching Yarebadekiru Ko instead of sleeping.

It's good so far, and I'm only on Boku Quest (lol) 

I know I'll get distracted watching to take more cute phone pics (well obvi! I didn't buy the limited edition of this DVD for nothing!) but here are some iPhone 6 pics:

 

I'm really sorry for the lack of updates.

Exams have calmed down by a lot (I only have 2 left!) and they don't matter as much anymore for a reason I can't share <3 I guess that means I can finally watch my DVDs past the intro and stageplays now? (lol)

Yarebadekiru Ko is probably a new favorite of mine...the tour plot is funny, the venue's a good size (I LOVE LOVE LOVE zepp venues. I hope to see a band live in one someday) and the audience shots are really nice. The stageplay is also really funny and a nice satire take on male idol culture <3 I liked Darukeiko. Kenji's OL voice is like ear candy to me...

One thing April gave me was a huge DVD haul that I mentioned earlier. It was probably my biggest DVD haul yet, considering I could only buy CDs and DVDs anyways. I just wish i could've convinced my mom to let me get an acrylic stand of Kenji (lol)

Things are changing really, really fast. I wish i could be stuck like this forever, watching Golden Bomber DVDs on my bed, but it feels like I've been stagnant for forever now. I have to move forward and I have to be there to see my life change. It feels weird; almost like I'm gonna molt and shed my skin, forming a new version of myself. I don't know what to do...maybe I'll watch another DVD (lol)

Another thing I've been thinking about is how mature or immature I may seem to others. It feels like, with all my longterm mutuals that I rarely speak to, they really only know this bastardized version of me from the past. I can't help but wonder if their perception of me has ever changed, or will ever change. It probably also applies to longterm friends, maybe? But I change a lot...so who knows if i really seem better or worse to everyone who I've known for a long while.

Bye!

~Cat

04.10.09 ~ Lazy lovepost dedicated to Kenji

(Note: I never really finished this on time but i dont care. Im making the post date for this the 10th anyways because that was when I started typing it. I also just get a bit sappy here so if you feel like that isnt for you or youre going to take it as a chance to be a bitch then just close the blog tab and breathe some fresh air. Thank you!)

The date that I made the title of this post is very very special. It's not related to me, personally, but it does relate to someone I really like; Kenji Darvish from Golden Bomber. 

April 10th, 2009 marked the first oneman live after their former drummer, Dankichi Tenkujou, left the band. It was that same concert that Kenji debuted as their new drummer. 

In 2020, I listened to a Golden Bomber song for the first time (well, kind of...) since I was into pop'n music and i eventually got into GB because my favorite character had Memeshikute as one of his songs. It was then that I kind of went down a rabbit hole of listening to a bunch of GB, when I stopped on one song; a very recent one at the time, Tatsuo, Yome wo Ore ni Kure. Besides the fact that the album it's from kind of sucks, that song singlehandedly made me think, wow, I really, really, really love Kenji. 

And love I did! Albeit GB was more of a casual interest of mine...but I remember binging a lot of Kenji-specific content.

Back to now...I feel like ever since 2023, there hasn't been a single day in my life that I have gone without spotting Kenji's face somewhere in my life. I have a phone charm of him attached to my phone at all times. I have a picture of him as my laptop wallpaper. I have a picture of him as my phone wallpaper. I have a memorial photo album from 2011 that i confide in whenever I just want a cute picture to look at. Every bag that I take out with me has a can badge holder with can badges of him inside. If you know me on a surface level, one of the things you know is how Kenji's my honmei, and if you've known me for a bit, you'd know I own merch of him. It pales in comparison to other collections I've seen, but I love everything dearly...maybe that, in a way, makes it a bigger collection (???)...

It's stupid; the fact that i'm dedicating a blog post to a 44 year old that has no idea I exist is very, very stupid. But I feel like I owe him something; a tiny tribute of my love, a sign of gratitude for all the times I've felt like the scum of the earth and all i needed to save me was a photo, a funny video, a DVD, quite literally anything related to Kenji. As stupid as it is, I can't help but feel the need to thank him, at least in a fan-to-idol type of way (lol). 

So much time has passed since 2009, and Kenji has changed so much; from his makeup style to his outfits to just the way he speaks to the audience in MCs, he's the type of person that's constantly changing, and it's almost always for the better. That kind of change takes discipline, and a kind of self-respect that i really do not see myself attaining (lol)...I feel like it makes him very admirable to me. I say this in more of a respect way, if that makes sense. Of course, it's not the most mentally stable behavior to put someone on that high of a pedestal, but i'm just saying this out of a place of respect. I hope it comes off like that naturally without me clarifying it (lol)

Thank you, Kenji, from the bottom of my heart. You've made Golden Bomber one of the most meaningful bands I've ever listened to, and it's just because you sit behind a drum set pretending to play with an iPod taped on the drum next to you. 

Thank you for always smiling and singing along.

I think that's essentially everything that's on my mind. I hate being this vulnerable but i feel like i've been meaning to make a post like this for way too long that i just can't help but dump all my thoughts (lol)

Mwah! Hugs and kisses! 

Thanks for reading!

Cat

Vacation mode ... burnout ... DVDs!

Hello! Ahh...it's been forever, but like, really, it's been forever. Ive been so burned out lately and it feels like blogging isnt so worth it anymore. But i feel like that mindset is kinda stupid. So ill just blog whenever i want.

How has March been treating everyone? It's been fine-ish for me. 

It was Ramadan, and i somehow managed to survive fasting through all of it (except for when i drank water on accident twice in a row in one day but we arent gonna talk about that its over now and i WILL be making that day up OKAY) without getting my period. 

Now i need to watch my diet much closer than usual because these past few days ive been getting horrible heartburn. Im only 18 and i feel like im 30 with how often my chests starts to hurt...this morning it hurt especially bad and i had to take some meds...ugh...

Besides that, i feel like ive just been burned out in terms of studying. It feels so daunting and i just can not be bothered anymore. Thankfully, its not over yet. There's a month left for me to get my shit together. Yay! ^o^ Its a bit crazy to think that after this, there will be no more a-levels or IGCSEs. there will be no more studying for anything besides school...wow. I hope i can work hard...

Sappy stuff aside, guess who (finally) got to order a bunch of DVDs~~~~~!!!!!!! MEEEEEE~~~~!!!!!

Everything that i got has a DVD, even the CDs! Well, except for the regular version of Yowasete Mojito, which was in a set containing every version of Yowasete Mojito. Mojito? Mojito...Mojito

The shokai genteiban ones even came with cards of Kenji! 

...and Kyan. >.> 

Uhm...what's this green bitch doing here! Speaking of Kyan, my friend's friend likes calling him 'petit lesbienne'. That's kinda cute...he's like the second shortest member behind Sho and i guess he could be lesbienne...if we gave him estrogen 

It feels so so so cathartic getting to order DVDs again. Besides my parents' burning hate (hyperbole...but theyve gotten sick of it...) for Buyee, my past hauls from oh I dunno HALF A YEAR AGO had no DVDs whatsoever! Partially because I had no more space on my poor little laptop. And no hard drive! So i figured I'd just wait on DVDs. 

Do i regret it? Slightly. I regret a lot of things. Like not buying that Life is all right feat. Kenji DVD before someone else got it. And not buying more cheki. I shouldve bought more cheki.

I bought 10 DVDs, 3 CD+DVD releases, and 1 CD. I'm so happy.

Today i shipped out all my individual DVDs, so like 6/10, since the other 4 came in sets. I'm waiting on my Golden Album CD+DVD to arrive to the warehouse for me to ship the last package out, but considering i bought it from that one red and white checkers CD store off of jp mercari (IYKYK) it'll take...a while... ;_; but it's whatever.

That and also there's a TAX I'LL HAVE TO PAY ONCE MY PACKAGE ARRIVES??????!!!!!! HUUUUUHHHH!!!!!!???? (said in a loud anime girl voice) it should be an inexpensive fee but...still a bummer :T i could buy myself a daiso lashes case with that money!

I hope to remember this blog again when my DVDs arrive. Take care of yourselves. 

Bye!

~Cat

On ZOMBIE disbanding and a weird thing I’ve noticed with Zany Zap bands

For anyone out of the loop, ZOMBIE, a well-known osare kei band, is gonna disband after their final live in July of this year. They’ve undergone a lot of lineup changes since 2019; from their guitarist Sho getting fired, to Reika leaving in late 2023, to their vocalist changing...simply put, a lot has happened to them over their nearly 12 years as an active band.

This whole ordeal got me thinking, hey, ZOMBIE is under the same label as Golden Bomber. A quick look at any Zany Zap social media account shows that them and GB are considered one of, if not, the only active v-kei acts under said label. That doesn't mean they're the only acts though. We had SINCREA and MANNEQUIN, both of which disbanded a few years after formation, with SINCREA members forming Fest Vainqueur, and MANNEQUIN ending with nothing further coming from it :( both bands were pretty active in their heyday, being involved with the (somewhat) yearly Zany Zap Summit events. 

ZZS as a whole isn't entirely dead though. Ever since, they've held it in 2017 and 2022 respectively alongside Guild, another Zany Zap band; but they're out of the question, having left the label in 2022 (i think...). Events and labels aside, the one thing that messes me up is that every ZZ band that isnt Golden Bomber is, in a sense, kind of doomed; staying loyal to the visual kei genre comes at the cost of being active. It makes me wonder, now that ZOMBIE is soon to disband, what's gonna happen to ZZ as a label? Is it just gonna have Golden Bomber as their only active act? Will new ones be added? Will pre-existing Euclid Agency acts be transferred to ZZ?

Regardless, the news is pretty sad. I'm hoping the members of ZOMBIE can find some kind of new path with their careers, whether it be going solo, starting a new band, or simply retiring...until then I hope they'll make the best of their time <3

Glucose respiration

The day before yesterday I had a dream where I got to meet up w an internet friend of mine who was popular online because of a memorial Instagram account she had dedicated to her younger brother. She never public ally revealed how he died so when we met I asked her and through her tears she talked about how her dad was an “open masochist” who was into this one specific kink called “glucose respiration”. It consisted of chugging glucose and staying as still as possible until your body could get rid of it one way or the other. Usually it could just be done with medical grade glucose (the kind they give to babies with infant jaundice. I know this because according to my parents I had infant jaundice and they had to feed me glucose in some kind of ICU) or a thicker, harder to obtain glucose just for this kink. Her brother got a hold of this thicker glucose and had somehow drank enough to kill him. After that, i went to the airport and then had to evacuate because they found a really toxic isotope of sodium in the air. Damn...

Anyways, I’m writing this on my iPhone 6! The typing sounds are fun. Using this thing is very cathartic...but blogging isn’t so efficient...(anime girl voice)Uuuuu....doushiyou......

Bye! Good night~!

~Cat