Mondai dake no watashitachi

 

Finals have started, and my life has ended. 

I started this draft before my biochem final; i just did it a few days ago...it was horrible. The MCQs sucked, as just as it couldnt get any worse, as soon as i even dared to look to the right, i was immediately called by a supervisor lady to sit at the front. Im not used to exam room discipline, so i didnt try to fight back, but...I did ask to be sat back where I was, to which i got a yes, then a no. It left me stressed for a while, and i was mostly just toughing out the questions. The essay section couldve been easier if i could remember anything, as per usual. Just a horrible, horrible exam, and now im scared I'll have to retake the module. It's hopefully not that bad, but i've played this shitty exam game before, and it's not fun...ugh. Everyone's complaining about the exam and even threatening to take it to the admission office to open an investigation on whether these questions should even be in the exam in the first place, and apparently my supervisors werent the only shitty ones.

I've had this as a draft for a while...
I finished the final after it; cellular biology. After googling some of the stuff I wrote in the essay section, I think im not nearly as doomed (lol) which is comforting, but now I gotta focus on the next one, histology. A total beast...

Not to mention, after my cellular bio final, a bunch of family came over...T_T it was a bad day to see anyone, My cousin came over and he stayed for a bit, my aunt joked about how she shouldnt be seeing him because he has finals...
...while staying over at our place while I have finals. 

My stress responses have been fucked beyond belief, I can't believe it. Yesterday, after my exam, i felt sick and so i measured my blood sugar. It dropped to about 80something mg/dl after breakfast by 2-3 hours, which, while being safe, is pretty low. 
Before that, the day of my biochem final, a good while after it, I got these horrible heart palpitations after dinner. My chest hurt because of them for a bit, then it calmed down to just residual...palpitation-feeling. I measured my blood sugar, 125 mg/dl, still safe for the timeframe i measured it in (2-3 hours after eating). Still, it's kinda scary...usually, I feel ok, but then all that stress hits, and I feel like my body's doing this against my own will. My body hates me because I spoil it with too much kinder bueno

There's so much to worry about, it's making my shoulders all tingly and tense!!!!!!! How will the rest of my finals go? Will i get those sweet sweet portfolio grades?? HOW WILL I LIVE??????? All this month has been is worry after worry, and it's all my fault...but i'll be ok, promise.

I'm very excited for vacation. I need to go back to my dorm and fetch all my bags and clothes!!! It's been forever since I wore any of my Golden Bomber shirts ;A; I can't wait to go back home! FAST WI-FI! MY GOLDEN BOMBER MERCH THAT I'LL BE TAKING WITH ME! MY CUTE ROOM! MY BED THAT'S NEAR A WALL! DAISO!!!!! ACCESSORY PLACE!!!!! Woot woot~

Ok, I've got some Mounir playing, so I'll be fine.

 
If you're a not-so-regular reader of this blog, you might know that before the J-pop, I was suuuuuper into 80s Egyptian music as a kid, especially Hameed and Mohamad Mounir.

When I was 8 or 9, I liked Hameed more, but now I favor Mounir much much more; his way of thinking about music, his way of thinking about art, his international releases (lol sorry habibi funk), it speaks to me a lot more than Hameed's stuff.
I still love Hameed, but his international releases SUUUUUUUUCK and all it is is Habibi Funk (shitty ass name btw. habibi funk???? get real) and he used AI like a year ago so...Mounir it is. Mounir also used AI in like 2023 but its ok the guys old. 
...ahem, rant aside, I heavily recommend starting off with his Shababeek album, it's some of his best work under Sonar Slam, the first label he was under, and it's generally regarded as a pretty revolutionary album for Egyptian pop; and rightfully so. Admittedly, its a pretty depressing album (once you learn the context behind the title track at least), so maybe West el-Dayra is a better album...? It's got more of a folk style to it, with a Nubian song and a cover of a Moroccan song in Darija, so if thats more your style, do check it out~ 0u0

I also like the Farha album, it's one of his more international pop-style releases, which he's also really really good at! It's got some wonderful tracks, but it's not one i come back to nearly as often as his Sonar Slam releases. (I am listening to a song off of Farha though, lol. I downloaded it to make a joke video of it with Yutaka Kyan pictures...? I never made it)

I've also been looping the same two Pudding Alamode songs, Mondai no Aru Watashitachi and Anti-idol. The former has a really nice almost Strawberry Switchblade-like sound...cute~ I associate these songs with Naruken and Junko too, because im sick in the head

Alongside that...I've ALSO been replaying Marikin Online 4.
Osaru's kinda a litty DILF?
Sorry. He's just my favorite human. The whitest Egyptian man I've ever seen*
*not really Egyptian but TBF you meet him in a pyramid so he's Egyptian by proxy to me. Tahya Masr

My favorite numa is, and always has been, Jack. Total loser, selfish, talks to the gacha games on his phone...that's just me if i was a man (lol)
Not everyone knows this, but i was also into MO4 back in like early 2020, like January. The first MO4 picture i saved on my old phone (...my iPhone 6 that i now use for pictures. Not sure if its the same one tho) was a picture of Jack in his old Amazonic Satellite skill. The one where his comically large dick just shoots to the moon? It makes me emotional looking at videos of that skill, I was such a stupid teenager. For reasons i...dont wanna share, but i said stupid, edgy shit about my parents that tainted my relationship with them, and that, I resent myself for, but it's been 6 years now. I know now to not do that (lol). 
I kinda fell out of love with MO4 for a few years, but I miss getting random ryona fanart of Jeraldy and/or Kirimi on my twitter TL. It's been fun to replay despite my shitty Japanese <3 Well, i also have...barely any RPG experience, so I am quite bad at MO4...but I can't wait to have Jack on my party, his skills seem really good and it'd make deplorable teen me happy if i could be able to hear that AMAZON WA WARE NO HOUKOU (screams of agony) voiceline...it still sounds sexy to me all those years later~ lol

My sexy husbando to the right~~~~

Bye!

~Cat