What a week it has been ^3^

I nearly died earlier this week (like a few days ago...)! My muscles started to hurt incredibly bad, but specifically my arms and legs. I dont know why, but i instantly started to cry, and i cried so much that my nose was full of snot and i genuinely could not breathe. I took a few painkillers, then i woke up and it was all gone!

I guess if theres one thing i can learn, its that pain is never permanent. Ever! I try my best to tell myself this. I can get as angry or tense as i want, but in as little as a few minutes, or as much as a few hours, it all just disappears and things are okay. It's really weird but it's good for keeping my feelings at bay. #MeaningfulLifeLessons #Important 

That and also for whatever reason seeing the new kyusaku/shinsaku goods just brought my mood down a tiny bit when i thought about it too deep. I dont think i can imagine next year passing without me seeing golden bomber live...but at the same time ill be too busy with reality to the point where i also cant imagine myself...GOING...lol (im in so much pain...)

Anyways! Tomorrow's Friday so no fasting. Yay! I'm gonna have a nice breakfast hopefully. And then finally go to that accessory store. PLEASE GOD LET ME GO TO THAT ACCESSORIES STORE. I have to! I must! Ive been wanting to go for literally months! 

I took my mandatory mid-blog break of unspecified time and i saw a picture of (can you guess) Kenji shirtless in a hotel room bed and is it ok that my entire body just started getting really really warm? Like abnormally warm? I feel like this is a new level of delusional for me. The only thing supposed to be making my body this warm should be like...a bad fever or something i dont knowwwwwww

Above: Real image of me thinking about all the perverse Kenji Darvish images ive seen over the years

I've been looping songs. I always loop songs. But this week's song is interesting even to me

I'm no stranger to Mounir's music...before Perfume and Golden Bomber he was all i listened to (because my parents would blast his music in the car all the time). I feel like he has better songs than this one, but it isnt bad by any means. It's catchy! But it feels like one of his more experimental songs. I dont know. All this man's fans are like three times my age ill just stick to my shallow GB songs or something. It's one of those songs id recommend only if youve listened to more of his songs...u get me?

It's 3 am...shit...

Uhm, bye!

~Cat