tomorrow's the day...for what? i don't know

helloooooooooo!!!! 

good evening!

its like...a little past midnight here. my mom suggested i sleep. which i probably will. but first...blog

i notice my more personal nothingburger posts get no interactions whatsoever ;A; makes sense because i a. never share them and b. theyre just word soup. where's the golden bomber kenji darvish sexy??!?!???!?!?? 

doesnt mean im gonna stop writing them though...

i freed some disc space up ^3^ like...3 gb. not the most but itll do for now...ive got like 31 gb of free space now. lets shoot for fordy

the title i chose is because...i set a reminder for when i should ship my things out. i should ship them out later today! that is if they all arrived...i dont care about THAT but im just hoping nothing gets cancelled ;_: hopefully this isnt jinxing it!!!!!!!!!! im just nervous!!!!!! and excited too!!!!!!

out of the gb things i got...there are like 4 DVDs. 1 has 2 discs...so 5 discs total. 3 concert discs. 2 miscellaneous ones. that is going to require a LOT of space! like...a lot a lot! golden bomber's dvds-that-come-with-cds iso files tend to be 2-6 gb. concert dvds tend to be much bigger. like...7-15 ;_;

overall, im just hoping i can free up the space i need...i dont have my usb drive on me rip 

thats all i can think of m(_ _)m im gonna listen to music and then im gonna go to bed

good night!

~Cat

isnt optical media just so fun? o3o

hello!
hope everyones doing well. my phone is charging so for the first time in a while im opening up my laptop again~~~~ 

ive been taking it easy before my studying starts up again, but sadly im at a physical low...my heart rates been getting worse, my appetite become unusual, so on so forth... q_q its saddening but i dont know what couldve caused it...ughhhh

yesterday i watched some new movie with my family lol. its name is something like 3esabet max? i think itd translate into english as max's gang but dont source me on that =3= it was a trashy movie, very funny even though i didnt want it to be, very...egyptian! there was another one i wanted to watch because some actor i like was in it but sadly...too many people. maybe next time? 

when it comes to egyptian cinema its all just movies that are on the so-bad-its-good side of things. they arent for everyone but its nice whenever you wanna take some time off of a serious movie to watch one that genuinely and actually is bad. 

writing this made me remember that kirisho visited egypt like four years ago he shouldve went to city stars. he was in the pyramids. he couldve made his way to cairo. and went to city stars mall. tsk

oh oh oh what else...

yesterday i ordered some stuff off of mercari!!!! a kind act from my moms end~~~ \(^q^)/ im the happiest girl in the world!

haul post coming whenever the package comes obvi! i wanna keep what i got a secret but i will reveal that after this package comes...ill be owning not one not two but THREE kenji darvish chekis. i notice unless theyre super recent chekis included w his birthday goods they tend to be fairly cheap '-' so much for being the most popular gb member JACKASS!!!!!!!!!!!!! i found one frommmm 2020-21 for nearly 30 dollars lol if i didnt have the morale or decency i probably wouldve bought it with no second thought. because i miss kenji's long and luscious Quarantine Hair. It was kinda sexy...

two of the cheki i got were in a set too. theyre both from like 2012, but one is from the best of obama blog book signings. for the FIRST book. can u imagine. (its probably not intentional but i wanted to abbreviate 'best of obama blog' and...it just abbreviates as BOOB. kenji...)

im gonna have to wait before shipping my stuff out though...im in egypt and apparently the post office doesnt keep packages for that long so i'll have to be really meticulous with when it ships and when it arrives...i was so motivated i even made a reminder!

ive been wanting to re-rip my cd collection too...

can i tell you a secret...

promise not to tell...

but...

...

i rip my cds using windows media player

...

its bad

i know

so called music archivist doesnt even use EAC everyone kill her NOW

i used to use fre:ac so ill just use that again. its easier to work with...sometimes

i didnt bring my cds or disc drive with me so ill just have to remember once i get home

in terms of post-worthy thoughts this is all i can give to you. thanks for reading xoxo

~Cat

kenji darvish birthday good ranking because i have nothing better to do whatsoever

hellooooooooooooo!!! hello! hello! hello! hello! gets dizzy and falls

im in egypt now! the wifi here is really sub-par... its good but. ah well '-'

my exams are finally overrrrrr! im freeeeeeee! at least for the next two weeks. then i have to start studying again T_T for my winter exams. and, if im lucky, they should be my last retakes for now. if i ever have any NOT enough grades i have some easy ones i can retake to raise my percentage up regardless. yay! i hope i can do good this session. rips my face off

alsooooo eid mubarak!!! im gonna go to the mall soon to buy some stuff...accessories and whatnot ^q^ 

enough happy stuff u read the title. we're going through all of kenji's birthday goods from 2023 to 2014. 2013 lacks images...sorry bros. anyways...lets start

starting from most recent to oldest. 2023 first!

i remember waiting for these to drop...honestly speaking, these are pretty solid goods...very VERY different from what im used to (copious amounts of butt and poop) and it feels like these are goods from kenji darvish the normal musician person and not kenji darvish the member of golden bomber infamous for sticken his butt out which i dont rlly hate. i find myself wanting some of these goods honestly. ...those little keychains and the memorial album are a need for me...nogusong too q_q maybe even the hairclips. i can do whatever kenji was doing in kinbaku all stars 2012

the can badges are a meh...the simplistic designs are subpar but i like the top two to the left...its nice that theres more makeupless kenji in birthday goods these past few years LOL

also that bear mascot is really interesting? i think that thing killed darupanda with its bare hands just saying

overall rating is just a 7.5/10. not a lot to gawk at but from the little thats given, its pretty good! good job euclid (  =3=)b

2022!

what the hell

that calendar is pretty sexy (spelled with an extra m, bolded and italicized) and id like to own it regardless of whether i still live with my parents because whats the point of knowing the date if a sexy picture of kenji darvish isnt above it

i like the color scheme but why poop. why why why poop. its...SICKENING. not even subtle. i will admit though id kill for those tote bags and can badges...and the memorial photo album seems cool too

6/10 you dont need that much poop

this is singlehandedly worse but id like the little square towels of him. the ones at the top with actual pictures of him. id like them. so that i can gently wipe my face on his face during my morning routine........and then id take too long wiping my face and id walk out with the towel still on my face and id fall to my inevitable doom rip cat... 

i feel what makes this years bday goods so recognizable is THAT DUMB FUCKING ANIME DRAWING OF KENJI WITH VEINS WHY DOES HE HAVE VEINY ARMS that and the sheer patriotism...for the land of the free EGYPT i mean AMERICA and also obama everywhere he just wont let that blog name go!

top row of can badges is cute though...and the sexy calendar. need that (there are also clear files from the same year i think? one of them has half of his asscrack showing. id like that one...no reason)

5/10 just for that horrid anime art of him being super swole. without it...probably a 7. he is not that muscular irl

2020! okay...

we had it all. the photobook. obnoxious pink motifs. kenji pretending to be badass when hes just a sexy loser. what happened. no one wants to work anymore

this is also the only year id like to own the jersey for. id like the older tshirts but they just arent normal designs. hes nakey in the '14 one and the '13 one is his hands...grabbing BOOBS. i genuinely want the photobook for this year so so so bad i think itll work out. yes i may own kenji sexy photobook but...well. i can name all the different parts of a cell surface membrane and you cant so HAH

7.5/10. he did this for the sick deranged fan(girl)s

2019 ooh ok! a bit boring. not much to say. cute can badges i guess? i like that towel too. I GUESS. that calendar is just another photobook that i keep seeing for shit prices on mercari. no body cares

4/10 sorry kenjicchi

2018 next! halfway there!

where do i even begin...those posters THOSE POSTERSSSSSSSSSSSSS (claws at the walls nearby)need   need   cant find on mercari but    need

the can badges are fine. i like the robohip...i mean MYSTERIOUS CHARACTER HIP one a lot. and the one of him...well. lifting his leg up. showing his BUTT

7/10 not much but its fun

2017! this is the last year youll see well-made collages.

towel design is very interesting and unique...his face isnt on it! i saw the calendar front cover and i felt my heart burst into blood and viscera. if kenji in this particular makeup and outfit threw himself out of a helicopter im going down with him. i need almost everything listed here. so cute

8/10 because of sexy calendar

ok warning there is a bare ass below you im making this text big and lengthy so that you can be safe ok? ok...be careful. ok? ok...hows the weather? really hot right...ya. i know...ok are you ready? hopefully you are..........

i dont care what anyone says anymore i need that body pillow no matter how deranged it is

9/10 for the body pillow alone

2015!

boring

this is all ill say

0/10 

last year for the post!!!!!!!!!! youve come so far!!!!!! 2014!

i like these a lot. very very unique and very interesting...id like just about everything here. especially the calendar. id like the calendar a lot

8/10 very cute year

wow that's all of them! i know it got short later on but what am i to do

its 3 am now

good night

~Cat

the mall ^o^

 hellooooo

as im writing this it is currently...2 in the morning

today i got my period ;_; perfect...i guess it explains my weird dream

anyways. i went to the mall! all the walking satiated my cramps. my mom wanted me to go to this one clothing store to buy a hoodie. it was fine. good loungewear. bad hoodies

fun part of it all was spending money on MYSELF! ^q^ yay! no more chit chat here's what i got

before i talk about myself...i got a surprise gift for a cousin of mine >_o 

isnt my taste just perfect? the bag also has extra goodies inside, but they feel subpar if i'm being honest...surely i can get more ^-^; or maybe this is just good enough?

and now...me! going clockwise starting from the top center we gottttt little twin stars keychain, toploader thing (was too short for my tra-ca sadly rip), card holder, stickers, anddd can badge keychains . woo!

the keychains come in this type of bag-looking thing? you open the button and put a can badge inside. the small ones they make of the golden bomber members! they're cute and handy but you may need more than one. as for the stickers...they just looked cute

the card holder... >_>

you knew why i bought this 

you totally knew...

closer look at the LTS keychain! cuuuuute!

the little sanrio copyright blurb says it was produced in 2020. really sturdy beaded ball chain!!!

?

?!?!?!

hook things i got from miniso :^D 

needed these. my dad got me some a while back. around this time last year. they broke. 

so i got more ;^D

bye bye

~Cat

good morning

hi...today i had a pretty weird dream. i have weird dreams pretty often, and for whatever reason with exams coming up ive been remembering my dreams more...i just wanna use this post to try to recall all the dreams ive had that i remember...or just whatever i can recall from those dreams. i dunno...

the reason im writing this is because of a dream i had THIS MORNING. what i can recall was this; me going to this sort of big building...it resembled something a bit liminal? it had these cream ceramic tiles all over and besides the noise of lights buzzing, it was very crowded. i think it was because of the opening of a store. a secondhand store??? i remember having a sort of itabag with me and i was rushing to meet someone, as for who, i dont really know. they gave me a bunch of photos and cards and then i rushed to my home to open and look at them all.
it was 5 or so postcards from golden bomber's 2016 tour, they were screenshots from the intro video and whatnot, and some tiny trading cards of yoshinori from waive (my favorite waive member. i kept looping shunshoku by waive last night so maybe thats why he was just THERE) if it matters he was wearing an outfit similar to his usual waive-era outfit with the black long sleeve shirt and whatnot but i opened them at the door of my home, and i distinctly remember the lights being a warm white. i love warm white lighting ANYWAYS and then i went through more of the cards and there were two chekis of kenji darvish for whatever reason? i got happy though LOL 

one was from like 2013 and was unique in the sense that it wasnt taken by him. it was a shot of him wearing a kind of bad boy outfit i dont know. he was makeupless though! and signed! the other one was from 2016 and it had him in that respirator thing from the 2016 tour intro video. then i actually went into my home and went to my drawer to organize all the cards i got and i found out a dvd i own just CRACKED. like it had this huge crack spanning the length of the spine...it was a kenji dvd that i own irl too...then i woke up i think?

(note: i searched up the meaning of something valuable breaking in a dream and it said its to honor something passing? wonder what that could mean for me)

the second one i had was much longer and was much stranger. i had it two or so days ago? it involved me taking my alevel bio exam (the one AFTER TOMORROW) but i kept skipping. they had this weird question that spanned through the bottom of two pages like some magazine spread. they didnt give the bubble sheet right away, and because i kept skipping, by the time i came back the exam was over. then the dream devolved into some sort of heist type thing to help me get my paper back so that i can solve it then put it back in the office where they kept it. again, another weird building, after the exam was over it morphed from a school to a kind of bar????? at least only the first floor. they had this bathroom which was tied to a ds modding station (?????) and there, i thought i could solve my exam but it ended up being some random girl's exam...so i just kept trying to find my exam in the upstairs offices but i think i passed out in the dream before i could

ok thats all ;_; the timing of these dreams is a bit scary ill admit

~Cat

woo!

helloooooooooooooooo!!!
lots of o's this time

guess who finally decorated her blog past the default theme O_O this girl!!!!! woohoo! (also i think im gonna stop writing the date before all of my posts its a bit annoying...) hope you guys like it...its a bit hard to read outside of the posts themselves but. ah well...!

i dont have much to say. my first exam in a while is in 3 days. i wanna go to the mall again. i feel ugly and filthy and my executive dysfunction is worsening...but yesterday i straightened my hair...AND SHOWERED in the same day. after i showered i blow dried my hair. then i straightened it. wow!

i think thats all i can say for now...but i have planned on making a kind of long post about (can you guess who)kenji darvish (collective booing from the crowd)awwww come on i expected a better au(tomato gets thrown at me) ow 

but YEAH...since kenji's 15th anniversary of being in gb was in april i wanted to make a blog post then but i just didnt feel like it honestly... ;_; mostly because blog maintenance at the time wasnt that big for me...(<- still isnt that big honestly)

as im writing this i feel like cleaning up some drafts. i made one a while ago about jpop and the effect its had on me...hm. i feel like its a really really double edged sword for me. jpop is something ive been confiding in and genuinely loving with all my heart since like 2014, but at the same time it's one of those things that can be used against me if i ever get provoked. makes you think

whats something interesting thats happened that doesnt involve either my exams or debilitating self hatred...OH one of my friends who i had a falling out with made a lastfm account and we're mutuals on there so i think we're on better terms. i hope we are...she left a shout on my profile saying i speak like an ai...is that true. do i really

im too sad, i say while listening to strawberry switchblade......see thats what a hypocrite sounds like (a nooooote dropped through the doooooooor tells us to gooooooooooo) ive found myself relistening to them lately which is horrible for my depression if im being honest but i think ill allow it (p.s. the song of the post is dark 7 by strawberry switchblade! Listen to it...)

i feel like, as a whole, this first half of the year has been average. definitely started off well but things as of late march havent been that good and maybe its for balance. honestly, who even am i to complain? i dont know why but complaining about anything going on just doesnt feel right. neither is accepting and sucking up to it honestly 

 bye bye!

~Cat